I have had a long road to this place. My family of origin was dysfunctional with alcoholism, abuse, disability and control, not a lot of love. Perfectionism and high expectations and criticism. It was difficult to be myself or express or grow. I developed bad habits and coping mechanisms. I was different at school and we moved around a lot.
I married young and slowly my husband became a parent to me and I became a rebellious child. I drank too much to dull pain and to try to be myself and I took on many projects and diversions. I had anxiety and depression for many years. We have two amazing young adult children. Eventually we separated and I had a very difficult period where I was away from my family feeling guilt, shame, remorse, self loathe and wondering if I will ever find my place on the world.
With the help of amazing friends and the Energy For Life Academy program I am on the right path now, a better path. A peaceful path.
My life before this program was a whirlwind of diversions, tears, dates, poor choices, drinking and overeating. Self sabotage. Lots and lots of tears and meltdowns. I was feeling anxious, depressed, miserable. I saw Corona’s ad on Facebook at the right time, with school holidays approaching and signed up. But I was stuck and wasted a lot of time in the holidays, practising old habits, staying up late, avoiding painful tasks and avoiding me.
With Corona’s help and the support of the group I became unstuck and got into the program. My energy was low, I run on adrenaline normally, I have since learned to create more energy and slow down and breathe.
Inside the academy felt safe, the Facebook support group was great, the weekly phone calls were so important. The help button to ask questions was amazing. The one on ones with Corona, the first one to sign up and a later one to detox some thoughts were incredible. The weekly units of work were methodical and thematically and made sense, there were videos to watch and stuff to listen to and activities to complete questions to answer. Yoga to try , breathing, journalling, detox, heaps of thought changing processes and many other strategies to try. Hearing the other ladies on the calls would give you more ideas on what works for different people.
There were steps forward and sometimes steps back as something was digested and worked through. Facing ME was hard. But it worked. When people ask me what’s in the program, I say there are many things I have seen before ( after many years of self help, courses and counselling) and many things I haven’t, but it‘s the way it’s all packaged up that works. Someone close to me once yelled at me “ You are always looking for answers! ” to which I replied “ Yes and I always will be!” I think we all are . Peace, meaning of life, harmonious relationships, authenticity, good communication. win/ win scenarios. I found all of this and more in the program.
I have shifted so much.. fear.. guilt, remorse, some anxiety, depression, worry, self judging… clinging to the past and things I cannot change and moving into the present and not worrying about the future, at the same time making plans and goals. I have stopped fighting and learned to be calm and peaceful.
I have more energy and am enjoying life so much more! I still have setbacks, relapses at times and meltdowns, but they are fewer and I handle them so much better and I know if I keep up my practice, there will be less and less and more happiness. I am making better choices and being more authentic and true to myself and my values. I feel so proud of what I have achieved. And so grateful to Corona and the ladies for support!